I have always taken fitness for granted. I have the type of body/temperment that NEEDS excercise. But I haven't really been getting any AT ALL. I do yoga sporadically, maybe 3 times per month but aside from that I've chosen to glue my ass to the chair in which in currently sits.
I posted over 600 blog entries last year. That's a lot of sitting. I also did a lot of crafting...also from my chair. I do chase the boys around but not far--our house is 1,200 square feet!
I've been taking 6 teaspoons of apple cider vinegar (2 tsp. 3x daily) for a week or so now and it seems to be stabilizing my blood sugar (hypoglycemic) because I have been experiencing far fewer fuzzy brain moments.
Today I popped in one of my all time favorite exercise tapes thinking I'd just do a quick workout. I barely made it through the first segment--legs, which is sad because my legs have always been the strongest part of my body.
After that I took a walk around my neighborhood with 70 lbs. worth of boys in the double stroller. It was raining hard today--I woke up thinking I would get a long, lazy day of cleaning and baking (like the one I had yesterday) but then the clouds cleared and the sun came out and I realized it was time to start taking better care of myself.
I ran into an old neighbor (she used to live a few houses down but moved, she still visits because her in-laws still live there) and we got to talking about fitness and parenting. She has three boys and is around my age. S and I always wanted to be better friends with them but we were all too sealed in our little house bubbles.
She urged me to join her gym and meet her and her boys for exercise. They have a "Kid's Club" and will watch your children while you work out. They have lots of good classes and a hot tub. I admit, thinking about doing a yoga or kickboxing class followed by a soak in the hot tub while someone else took care of my boys sounded tempting.
I just signed up for a free 7 day pass. We'll see. I do have lots of videos at home, but the problem is the boys take that time to jump on me and cause me to bump into them when I'm trying to do a lunge.
As I was walking I felt sad that I have neglected myself so much. I have connected to the internet but disconnected from myself. I fall asleep every night, my head swimming with other people's thoughts and opinions. I have dreams about whether or not I responded to a particular email. I have zero connection to my body aside from getting mad when it doesn't look the way I want it to.
I'm trying not to get discouraged or be too hard on myself. I know how I am, I'm tempted to go whole hog in the other direction and that's not the right way to approach it. I know how to take care of myself and I do have some good habits, I just need to be more physically active before I am 20 pounds heavier than I would like as opposed to five.
I realized that I've been avoiding anything that takes real physical effort. If I have to struggle I don't do it. Yesterday I took a short bike ride and it was glorious. When I lived in San Francisco it took a huge effort just to walk up my steep street. I didn't drive the whole time I lived there so I walked everywhere. I did take the bus but I did a LOT of walking. In Berkeley where I lived next I rode my bike everywhere including five miles to work each way. I loved it and really miss being able to do that here.
Why can't I? Well, because in the Bay Area there are bike lanes on the streets and drivers are more aware of cyclists. Here it is dangerous to ride, I know loads of people who have been seriously injured by negligent motorists. Plus, the weather here is just not the same as it is there. I could ride my bike to work and not be a sweaty mess the way I would be here. And now I have two kids so that makes it more challenging too. But I love my bikes and wish I had more time with them. I guess I have to make more time.
I'm eating a salad and the birds are chirping. I wish I could say I felt like running a marathon or something but really, I would love a nap...