Of course, I was full-on PMS'ing and didn't know, I hadn't really been keeping track of my cycle. I just knew that life sucked and I was freaking out.
The boys have been going to bed at a decent hour lately and that has been really nice. I need to have the evenings to myself. I am, of course feeling much better now that I started my period. Damn those hormones! But I believe that you shouldn't discount the feelings that pop up during PMS. It would be so easy to be like 'oh, silly me and my awful little hormones I didn't mean what I said at all!' but I find that I mean exactly what I say I just don't feel comfortable or brave enough to let it out otherwise. But when I'm hormonal it's like RAWR! This is how I feel! And that's kind of awesome. I love being a woman.
I had to deal with my nasty tick problem which was tedious and really horrible. Then my entire left side went numb (just started coming back) THEN I woke up on Thursday and my fridge/freezer was warm. I had a complete panic attack and called my landlord. I cranked the setting up as cold as it would go and by the time he got there it was cool again and it was hard to tell that all my food had been melting. I was freaked out because I had JUST bought groceries and really can't afford more. I had raw chicken and milk in the fridge.
My landlord (who, really is great) thought I was being hysterical and really, I was but--I needed him to assure me it was fine and he didn't and so I cried like a baby while his very sweet wife tried to comfort me. They finally went and bought me more milk and chicken and raced out of here, out of my den of hormones.
So I gradually pulled myself out of my funk (with the help of my amazing friends), took care of some work stuff I had let slide and then of course my period started. So today I've been super mellow and happy. Last night I stayed up late messing around online and listening to this band:
The boys have been going to bed at a decent hour lately and that has been really nice. I need to have the evenings to myself. I am, of course feeling much better now that I started my period. Damn those hormones! But I believe that you shouldn't discount the feelings that pop up during PMS. It would be so easy to be like 'oh, silly me and my awful little hormones I didn't mean what I said at all!' but I find that I mean exactly what I say I just don't feel comfortable or brave enough to let it out otherwise. But when I'm hormonal it's like RAWR! This is how I feel! And that's kind of awesome. I love being a woman.
I was told recently that I look like this local Austin lady:
And damn, I kind of do! Weird!













